In the beginning stages of our faith, we are often looking to be led in the word which is perfectly understandable. For many of us, we have heard bits and pieces of the Bible, but when we finally dig in, we need a lot of help learning the stories, deciphering how much stuff we’ve actually learned out of context and the like. As we grow in our faith, we begin to realize that all though it’s great to be taught the word of God from Pastors and leaders in the church that there is a whole lot more work that we need to do on our end. That work involves learning to study the word for ourselves.
It’s interesting how you can think something means one thing and then have a completely different revelation about it shortly after. I had the awesome opportunity to hear from Dr. Dee Dee Freeman on Saturday, Jan. 30 at an event hosted by Heaven’s Gate ministry and it completely blew my mind. If you know anything about Dr. Dee Dee, you know that she is a bold woman of God and as some of you say, she was in the building snatching edges all around. She helped me realize that this is my year of bold faith and big prayers, but in more ways than one.
What we say will manifest. Good or bad. This is something that I know to be true because I have seen its power. Most of the things I have found myself meditating on over and over in my life have happened. Period. This past week I had such a great convo with the bubbly Ayana Iman who is a mommy, blogger and life coach. Our conversation was casual in nature, just to get to know one another as we were introduced online. Within that talk, I was reminded of the importance of affirmation because Ayana is a huge advocate for it and helps coach people with their own. It’s not something I always think about, but it is something that has really become a habit in my life. For me, most often it is in the form of a confession derived from scripture in the Bible. And so I wanted to take some time today to talk about its importance and maybe help you write some of your own.
I used to miss praise and worship all the time at the first church I attended regularly as an adult. It wasn’t really as much on purpose, as getting up and at em’ on a Saturday can sometimes be a bit of a challenge. Snuggled under warm covers you think, “I’ll still get there in time for the sermon.” Somehow we resolve that’s all that matters, but I realized it’s not for many reasons.
I used to be afraid to stand up during praise and worship at church. It felt uncomfortable. I was so focused in on the perception from those around me instead of actually focusing on God during the time that prepares you to receive the word of God. I also hated turning to books in my Bible. Again, I thought that other people would notice that I didn’t know exactly where to turn or what order the books were in. What I have learned is that NONE of that is important and it’s all of the silly excuses that we will make for ourselves not to enter into the house of God.
The funny thing about the title of this post is that most often it’s not that we are waiting on Him, but quite the opposite. Most often he is waiting on us and that’s what tends to be the most frustrating part for me at times. I am left wondering, “What do you need me to do?” However, many times I have felt like the answer has been, exactly what you’ve been doing which helps me to realize that it will just be in His timing not mine.
I am not gentle by nature. Not sure that I ever have been. And though the broadcast that I watched that spawned this post cited that most people aren’t, I definitely think there are others that may be a little better at it than me. I grew up in a household where you kind of had to have tough skin. And so sometimes I don’t even realize that I can be a little much until I see the response of others. I’m sarcastic, sometimes a little brash, and loud. But as I grow and mature, I see the importance of gentleness. And not only with others, but maybe even more importantly with myself.