The funny thing about the title of this post is that most often it’s not that we are waiting on Him, but quite the opposite. Most often he is waiting on us and that’s what tends to be the most frustrating part for me at times. I am left wondering, “What do you need me to do?” However, many times I have felt like the answer has been, exactly what you’ve been doing which helps me to realize that it will just be in His timing not mine.
What is it that you are waiting for? A husband or wife, children, a new job, financial stability, a promotion? Most of us have desires. Some we have made known to many people, some we only speak of quietly in our prayer time. The fact of the matter is, many of us are waiting on something. But the most important part in our waiting, is how we do it. That is what patience actually entails. I’ve heard too many people say, “Don’t pray for patience because if you do, God will give you something to be patient about.” Which is a terrible thing to tell someone by the way. Ha! I rarely pray for patience because of that. But if patience is just related to our attitude while we wait, why shouldn’t we pray for that? We’re all waiting on something, might as well ask for God’s wisdom on how to wait and still be amicable and productive in the process.
I guess I am waiting on my “moment” if you will for lack of a better term. And no not in comparison to what anyone else is doing. Believe me, the battle is almost won when it comes to comparison. More and more I see the stupidity of wasting time on comparing my life to someone else’s. But just in this idea of, a second to really shine. To really look back at something and say, wow, God did that. These moments do come. Believe me. In small waves. I definitely have seen my progress in areas that I’ve worked on and blah, blah, blah. But can we really be honest on this blog or nah? I am waiting for that moment when I will know that it was nothing I could have done in my own power that it was definitely God because, well, I am not that smart. And you may be saying, but we are nothing apart from God so everything we do is because of him. But I told you I was being vulnerable for a second here. I am waiting for my big bang.
It sounds real silly I know. But I am just being honest. I am waiting for the stars to align in my life. Not that there won’t be strife or highs and lows because that would be ridiculous. But that I am walking in a flow and in complete purpose. I am waiting with God for my books, blog and business to explode. And I know that he is waiting on me in probably many other areas. And I want to truly and whole heartedly be OPEN and say, Lord, whatever you need from me. Lately, I have definitely been convicted about grace, mercy and kindness. I know that those are some important lessons for me in this season right now. And I look forward to getting those on the inside of me so I can get to the next thing that God has for me.
Although at times I get antsy about my career and direction and next steps, I know without a shadow of a doubt that God’s will for me is better than anything I could imagine. And so at times I am warring with the flesh that says, “I WANT OUT!” and the spirit that is saying, “It’s not time yet.” And it can be frustrating. But Heather Lindsey said something so important that stuck with me. “Work as unto the Lord.” Simple. But so poignant. All the times when I am complaining about work and what I actually would prefer to be doing, it’s like a smack in the face to God. And so instead I combat those thoughts with “Work as unto the Lord.”
The truth be told, as I confess every morning, “While I am waiting, you are working.” And even more honestly than that, it’s really already done. God is not out here toiling and laboring on what our lives will be. It’s written. All we have to do is stick to the plan. But we get so frustrated and so out of rhythm with Him, that we begin moving in our own strength, toiling instead of following His plan. We have power in our situations and the most powerful thing we can do is be sensitive to His voice. There is nothing I can do apart from God. We can’t move steps ahead of Him and we shouldn’t be moving steps behind. Right there with Him. Sensitive to His every move. Allowing Him to be the lamp to our feet.
And even with all that I know, at times, in moments, I still find myself wondering, “But when, Lord?” I think that’s the lesson. I think that we don’t always have to have it all together. We don’t have to feel like we can never question what’s happening in our lives or the timing. But we surely just have to remind ourselves day and night of what the word says. My Pastor Lester Brown has been speaking on The Keys, The King, and The Kingdom. The reality is, we have all the keys already, in the word. We just have to use them.
While we wait, we should be immersed in the keys to our blessings, the word. Waiting patiently, reminding ourselves of the true and honest love that God has for us and that even when we are blinded by what we think we want, all things, ALL THINGS (even the things we are not happy about) are indeed working together for our good. While we are waiting on God, we must have faith.
Do you ever get impatient feeling like you are waiting on your "greater" moment? I love this record below by Jakalyn Carr.
Scriptures to Reference:
Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, since you know you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving. Colossians 3:23-24
And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28
Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path. Psalm 119:105
Be careful for nothing: but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be known unto God. Philippians 4:6