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WRITE | How to Not Go Crazy

WRITE | How to Not Go Crazy

It’s funny, one day I was complaining to my BF about people always putting me in charge of things. I was just like “Why is it always me?”

He looked at me and laughed and said because you put yourself in that position.  He said I am a “get it done” type no matter what and most people will see that and then put me in charge of stuff. He said that it’s hard for me to play the background especially if I think I can do something better or faster.

And so just like with anything he tells me about myself, I denied, denied, denied. Haha! I feel like I always fight his thoughts at first and then God gives me these a-ha moments where I always have to come back and say, “You were right.” So talking to my mom one day, I was explaining how my best friend is supposed to be planning a little girl’s night get together. She hates entertaining, but I was doing my best to let her take the reign. As I was talking to my mom I said, “Oh I will probably just have it since she’s dragging her feet,” and no short after that I gasped and held my chest. This was the big one. This was the revelation that I am always trying to take charge of something and I realized that my best friend exploits that in me because she was trying to get me to do it the whole time! She’s so smart!