The first time we took our new dog to the vet, I was an emotional train wreck. She started rattling off shots that I thought he already had at the shelter, the dog was wild while my husband tried to calm him down, and my bill was about $140 over the $50 I anticipated. “What the hell had I done?” was resounding loudly in my head as I literally broke into tears in between the Vet going in and out of the room.
What some of you may not know about me is that my journey in blogging honestly started from my work in the music industry. I know, weird right? But let me explain. I started college as a journalism major but decided that news sucked and I wanted to write about something more exciting, cue songwriting. Lol. I just randomly decided that I wanted to write songs and so I switched schools and majors to Broadcast, Telecommunications, and Mass Media which somehow held a music industry track and the rest was history. Why I am no longer in hot pursuit of a songwriting career is because at some point you come to a crossroads where you have to either get better or quit.
There has been a war going on between me and my feelings for some time. For as long as I can remember I have always been a person who feels. Whether it’s balling my eyes out at Titanic when we already know the ending or being hard on myself for something that I messed up, I feel. I’m feeling all the time.
I had to laugh when at When Pens Collide, I said to Yetti of Yetti Says that I was looking forward to my thirties and she replied, “Why do people keep saying that?” It was hilarious. Like who is really looking forward to their thirties right? Well, maybe I am a freak of nature but I am. Don’t get me wrong, being young and bright and all that good stuff has been amazing! I’ve learned a lot, been through some ish and have come out a pretty awesome woman if I do say so myself. But like every good book, there is just as much of a great story left to be told in the next chapter of this life.
I tweeted this a few days ago and it seems it resonated with many people. I have just felt so uncomfortable in spaces where we are pretending to be cool, or pretending to be farther along than we really are. I crave resonating conversations, belly laughs, and opportunities for true growth. In a time where we are constantly bombarded with interpretations of real life through social media, I think it’s more important now, than ever, to surround yourself with authentic, genuine people.
I love how God knows exactly what you need at the right time. This has been happening to me a lot lately and I am welcoming it all. Coming across things like The Cultivated Heart is one of the best things about the interwebs.
I’m not even sure how I found the page which is owned by Amanda Knight. It could have been on the popular page on Instagram or something like that. I was drawn in first by the great images and then as I began to read different posts of hers, I thought to myself, “She sounds just like me!”