I wish that people weren’t so afraid to try God. I mean so much so that they are living miserable lives, yet still won’t give something a real shot that they’ve never tried. And I mean I get it. I was there. I felt like I had life under control and then I found myself in a dark place with everything to be happy about but not feeling happy about any of it. It was in that space that I thought to myself, “what haven’t I tried?” I had never given God the opportunity to be the true Lord of my life. The moment that I submitted to His will, some painful things happened, some things from my life that I desperately wanted to cling to faded away, but what I found in the midst of confusion and falling apart was invaluable.
“The past is a place of reference, not a place of residence.” -Willie Jolley
I wonder if our pasts could withstand the spotlight? That’s what I think anytime we find someone that becomes the public scapegoat for condemnation from week to week. Whether it’s Chris Brown, Nate Parker, Kim K or whoever, I always find it hard to jump on the bandwagon of public condemnation and it’s because I am not so sure I would ever want my past blown up for the world to see.
I had no idea what to expect. I’ve always wanted to attend a large Christian conference but this was the first I’ve been to of this stature. This was the very first year on the 20th Anniversary that Bobbie Houston of Hillsong Church based in Australia brought her Colour Conference to America. Close to 5,000 or so women gathered in Madison Square Garden in NYC full of expectation.
My husband is a recovering drug addict. I say, “recovering” because although he doesn’t use drugs anymore, he’s still learning how to not behave like an addict. You may not know what I mean by that and maybe it sounds harsh to you, but I promise I don’t mean anything bad by it. My husband spent years creating a habit of disregarding empathy for personal protection. He’s better at taking care of his own needs than he is other people. It’s just the way it is.
It dawned on me recently that many of you may have no idea why the blogs linked to spirituality are entitled Journey of a Non-Believer. It may even be a little bit confusing. Lol. But I assure you that I am a believer and follower of Christ. Every day I am working diligently to be more and more like him. And though I know that I will NEVER be perfect, I look forward to being the most refined version of myself that I can be.
Praise and worship. It’s that warm up that gets you in the right place to be able to receive the word of God on Sunday mornings. Well, at my church, which is non-denominational. I know a lot of other sects have their own ways of doing things. However, for us it’s the time where hymns, songs, etc., are sung by singers as well as the congregation. Most people opt to miss this portion for some reason though, which was always shocking to me. Gospel and Christian music has always been so moving to me and so I enjoyed getting to church early to hear the songs.
I used to think that Proverbs 31 was all about the perfect woman. When I first read the scripture I thought to myself “yeah right.” This lady is making clothes, working in the field, praying for hours, making breakfast, and who knows what else. I’ll surely never be able to amount to any of that. But I think it was listening to a sermon from Elevation Church where this thought came out. “Proverbs 31 is not about being the perfect woman, but a woman transformed by grace.”
I know that we live in a time where everyone is seemingly an expert and so many seem to just pick something that’s on trend to do and do it. Sometimes I think to myself, “Really?” However, the upside to that is that we also live in a time with a lot less gatekeepers, which can also allow people to more easily walk in purpose without the roadblocks of the past. God’s word tells us that we don’t always have to be “qualified” by the world’s standards in order to be called.