Journey of a NB | That One Time I Sung

Praise and worship. It’s that warm up that gets you in the right place to be able to receive the word of God on Sunday mornings. Well, at my church, which is non-denominational. I know a lot of other sects have their own ways of doing things. However, for us it’s the time where hymns, songs, etc., are sung by singers as well as the congregation. Most people opt to miss this portion for some reason though, which was always shocking to me. Gospel and Christian music has always been so moving to me and so I enjoyed getting to church early to hear the songs.

And it’s important! Like I mentioned before it sets the atmosphere. Takes you out of the mind frame of all your problems and gets you focused on the goodness of God. But getting to the “me singing part!” Ha! I always admired the conviction that praise and worship singers, sing with. The people that actually make you feel something when they sing. And so funny enough at one point in my life I decided to take some singing lessons at Deliverance Church.

At the time, I was still really pursuing songwriting and though I could carry a tune, I would never masquerade as any type of “singer.” But I really wanted to work on my voice a bit so that I would be a lot more comfortable in the booth referencing some of my songs. So … there I was, in this class, at my friend’s church and I got a lot more than just some notes on how to stay on pitch.

Our instructor talked all about the importance and the reverence of singing to God. It’s referenced many, many times in the Bible and clearly something that God finds pleasing. It was great to hear it from that perspective. And so the class was for a few weeks and at the end of it we had to select a song to sing for our closing class.

I was terribly nervous. I hate singing in front of people. But I got the piano player from my church at the time and my lovely producer BF to help me practice. And that Tuesday night or whenever the class met, I trucked to North Philly to sing my little song. Haha. As I watched others get up, I felt a lot more comfortable but still super nervous all at the same time.

Once it was my turn to go, the music started and there was no turning back. My song was “You Hold My World” by Israel Houghton and as I began to sing the words, in that moment it clicked how powerful it is to sing to God.

“You hold my world in your hands, you hold my world in your hands, I’m not afraid, my world is safe in your hands.”
— Israel Houghton

I lost it. When I was singing, “I’m not afraid” it was so powerful in that moment because I was terrified. But I felt God with me. It was like he was working through me and I wasn’t even really in control. I’m no Tamela Mann or Chris Tomlin or anything, but I felt that the people in the room could feel my sincerity. And I get choked up every time I hear that song!

Although I’ve always loved the spirit of Christian music, I was forever changed in that moment where I felt in my gut the words that I was singing. Now I don’t think ALC is letting me on the praise team any time soon, but I know now. I know how important it is to have the opportunity to worship God through song. But no worry I will just be blending into the crowd for now. Don’t let me get a solo! Haha!

Scriptures to Reference:

Speaking to yourselves in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord. Ephesians 5:19

Let the message of Christ dwell among you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom through psalms, hymns, and songs from the spirit, singing to God with gratitude in your hearts. Colossians 3:16

Shout for joy to the Lord, all the Earth, burst into jubilant song with music. Psalm 98:4