It dawned on me recently that many of you may have no idea why the blogs linked to spirituality are entitled Journey of a Non-Believer. It may even be a little bit confusing. Lol. But I assure you that I am a believer and follower of Christ. Every day I am working diligently to be more and more like him. And though I know that I will NEVER be perfect, I look forward to being the most refined version of myself that I can be.
So what’s up with the name? Well – about 5 years ago, I was the complete opposite! No I wasn’t gang banging or leading an insanely crazy life, but the last place you would have found me was in church every Sunday morning. I was soooo ANTI! Yes I definitely was exposed to church growing up, but I was never super involved and active in my faith. I would attend, be moved and that was all I thought having a relationship with God was.
It wasn’t until around the end of college that God began bringing believers in my life that began to water the seed of Christ that had been planted. And at first I was resistant! I would get into debates about religion, “Why do so many black people believe in a religion that was used to keep them in chains?” Yes it was bad. But how many of you know that God never gives up on you?
When I met my significant other, it was really my first exposure to a young, fun, “normal” Christian person. Not only him but a bunch of his friends. It was their light that made me say, I want to know more about that! And so around October of 2011 or 2012, my memory is getting fuzzy, I started going to Impacting Your World church in Germantown, Philadelphia and my life changed.
It wasn’t about being a part of this “club” that Christianity is often times seen as. It was about getting to know God for myself. It was learning that being in relationship with God was way more than a Sunday morning church service. It was realizing that even in the moments when I was too stupid to acknowledge his goodness, he loved me anyway. And well what can you do with that but wake up every single day and be grateful?
And so here I am, leaps and bounds from where I was but learning something new each day about how to really take my faith by the reigns. I wasn’t some person who, all they knew was church. I wasn’t this perfect angel nor a person who had their butt handed to them and had no choice but to come to Christ. I was just floating, existing, like so many of us are.
And so when I began working on my book Journey of a Non-Believer (still unreleased), I wanted to share lessons on the blog with some of you who may be in that same space. You kinda know there is a God, but you are not hastening after his goodness. Well I want to assure you that life is so much better on this side. NO my life is not perfect by ANY means, but I am a new creature in Christ and I honestly don’t know how I did it without him. I have lost friends, people I loved and more in pursuit of Him, but I wouldn’t give it back. I know that I am better, I am the best I have ever been in the presence of Christ. I like these post to be relatable to REAL LIFE because if you really dig in, honestly the Bible talks about everything you can imagine. It has your answers for real.
No one can make you believe, but I assure you that like most, you will have a quiet moment within yourself and you will hear him call. But the decision will still be yours, you get to choose. Will you choose life or death?
I hope that’s not too scary or weird for you, but indeed whatever is not growing is dying! Just trying to be transparent. Tell me in the comments below, what have your struggles been with your faith? I have a bunch at varying times, believe me!
Therefore, if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away, behold all things are become new. 2 Corinthians 5:17
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it, shall eat the fruit thereof. Proverbs 18:21